Venturing Out

I left Eli for the first time today. I was only gone for an hour and I left him with his Daddy, but it still counts. For my first outing alone I went to the grocery store - not too glamorous - but that wasn't the point. This past week I realized that it was time to start taking little outings by myself or else I was going to have a major meltdown when I have to go back to work on January 5th. I am sure that I will still be an emotional wreck when I have to go into the office 2 days a week, but I am hoping that if I run a few errands here and there this month it'll help prepare me.

Jered stayed home with Eli and they did just fine. I wasn't really worried that there would be any problems, its just that I did not want to leave him. Maybe when he is older I will feel the need to go out and do things on my own, but not right now.

Perhaps I would feel different if I wasn't going back to work full time. Since I feel like have to leave him to go back to work in January I do not want to be away from him at all right now if I do not have to.

Hopefully it will all work out. Hopefully his caregiver will take wonderful care of him those two days that I am in the office. Hopefully I will survive being away from my baby two days a week.